Finally back at my own crib after 123456789 years.. Almost forgotten how it feels to be at home treated like princessy! Hehe (^.^) Mood's rather good these days.

Met up with dear kitz after so long of not catching up with each other, @ westmall. Fat's momma volunteered to send me there so I saved my cabfare. Heh! I'am almost a pack of smoke from being broke yet i splurged on a new pair of pumps the moment I see one which was close to "love at first sight" tsk! Chillax @ coffee beans, catch up with sissy, pass her some of the clothes and accessories I got for her from bkk. Had a fruitful day even tho we only met for mere 2 hrs.

Feeling extremely fat as I gained 8 kgs in just 2 weeks! Horribly fat I felt.



















I have awesome friends! They'd always
think about me even when they're out..
Or maybe I'm just not too thoughtful always :(











Royce Chocolate Chips momma's friend bought.


Just came across this page of tips from Facebook. So I decided to share it here hoping it do helps for those who suffers from headache or migraines frequently.


It's always milk for breakfast at home :)


And I'm so damn pissed by this bird who literally pecks at my window the whole morning causing disturbance from my beauty sleep!

So much thanks lor kukubird! Tried shoving it off but it just die die come back pecking at my window pane the whole morning. Got so tasty anot? I only managed to fall asleep by 5am in the morning yet this kukubird have to spoil market. Luckily Joey.L was there to hear me whine I think he's the only angel(he claims I can use this word on him) who can hear me whine for so long & never gets sick or show any signs of "he's just entertaining me" in line. Muahaha.

I think this blog post is long enough for Joey Loveaintlust to stop nagging that I've left my blog to rot. Muahaha. She's forever requesting for me to update this lil space of mine.....

Sometimes we have to accept the fact that love doesn't gives us the license to own anyone.

Okay I am super pekcek now my blood is boiling at its highest level. I tried updating my blog twice on my phone but when I wanted to post, it went back to my homepage & then blank when I'm back to blog press. Fuck!

Overdue pictures shall do the talking as I don't have the mood o-re-di -.-"

I promised Joey to blog but I'm late for 3 days! Okay actually I have nothing much to say cos my life's a constant struggle between sleeping, waking up & eating :< Here are all the backdated pictures!




My current wall




Feeling fat already...



Muahaha! Look at the semi drunk sky.

We had steamboat @ fat's place as its his elder bro's birthday. Then 3 guys came back bringing bloodshot faces, reek of alcohol, birthday boy drunk, another semi-drunk & the other still-all-right only. Sky & Damien. LOLOLOLOL

Hmmmm. One fine day when I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night this pubor Joey made me smile so wide she really brought a wide wide happy smile from the depth of my heart cos I finally felt someone understands the inner me, she actually sent a picture to me even tho it's just a picture & afew sentences but it meant alot really. Here it is. Thank you dear, I appreciate the sweet thought though. You deserve a kiss just on that day, the rest of the days you're so brainless muahahaa :P

 My eiffiel tower is almost done, like finally I managed to put my hands on & draw with a black marker. Those days with just pencil marks are awful! Managed to turn in early last night with my fat tiger. But got no idea why I woke up at 5am out of a sudden checking my phone, & thinking it was already evening until I realized the living room is still quiet. My fat went to pack breakfast for me, momma & granny :D My fav from 302, but it taste so different today. So I sent him a text, thanking him for settling my meal & conveniently told him the food sucks today. Muahaha. Expected, he was making noises over the phone. Mahjonged with the two old ladies..........

Thank you Liling dabian.

This is an overdue picture, she actually got the eyedrops for me

before my bkk trip. And also both dresses fits me perfectly!

Love.

My entire life is a continuous cycle of convincing myself

that I can survive and then convincing that I can't...

I am not depressed. I can still smile at pretty things, and laugh

when jokes are funny. I can still talk to people and sometimes

enjoy nice days.

But when I go inside, when I am alone, there is something broken. And I fall into a sadness so sweet, that it engulfs me. I look in the mirror and I don't like what I see. And the tears always almost fall, when I'am falling asleep. And I miss something... that doesn't exist. 

I'am not depressed, I've just been sad for awhile

but I can still find the lights.I can still smile.

I tell myself, "you're not alone," 

yet when i hey in bed at night my sadness envelops me rather than my blankets

and my head is propped up by a monster of thoughts rather than my pillows,

and by the weight in my chest, it feels as if the mattress is laying on top of me,

instead of the latter. And all I know through this confusion is when I sit up and

take a look around. The only person there, is me. and the only person who cares, is me.

and the only person who understands, is me.

And gosh, I feel so alone.

But no, even tho' he's lying right beside.

I feel as though my ribs are breaking apart 

with the ache that's aching my tiny little vulnerable heart.

When I'm upset, I shut myself down.

I have no motivation for anything. 

I tell myself that nobody cares. 

even though I know some do (don't feel unfair)

I think about all of the negative things

I could possibly think of.

I give myself all the pain 

thinking I deserve it.

I'm not sure why I do that,

but that's just how I am.

And it've been like that, 

for far too long.......

Never forget 3 types of people in your life:

1 - Who helped you in your difficult times 

2 - Who left you at your difficult times

3 - Who put* you in your difficult times

Met up with Joanna.Yee on sunday, it was a last min decision, and that mad girl came naked face running like crazy ending herself up panting like she've just finished a marathon! o.O Anyway, splendid trip! Kinder chocolates at only $1.95 per box! Stockkkk upppp. Did a lil catch up before we part. Thanks sweetheart.

wo de fat

 Supposedly to watch movie with his cliques & gfs, but gave it a missed cause he thought we couldn't make it. So I wasted like more than an hour preparing myself -.-" then staying at home waiting for him to come home..................... What a monday night.

He came back with these on Monday! ^^

MY LOVE.