Friday, April 25, 2014

Bitch please.

Oh the first reaction after reading this particular post on fb I suppose you're referring to me, and yes you may go ahead with your speech adding points like, i am guilty conscience or that I indirectly admit and assume that post is for me. But with all the points you've made over your timeline, are clear enough to verify whom you're pointing your fingers at. Well but I'am pretty sure you wouldn't deny it was meant for me because I was so astonished how a big fuss and how oh very demonized you are when you were broadcasting about what you might have "heard" or even "seen" when initially you were quite a humble girl, at least to me, the impression I had about you. You are the cause of your own chaos. Before you even make a speech, be very sure that you have a clear picture of what took place in the past that caused you to be mad furious right now. Everyone and anyone can sell you a lie. I don't deny some were facts and some we're interesting stories about myself that I weren't even aware of. You may say whatever you want. Throw all the insults on me I don't give a bloody damn you know because nothing beats a clear conscience. 

I don't find any reasons why I should use vulgarities on someone whom I once treated as a friend even tho' we were never close to the extend like best friends or good friends, we barely met twice or thrice but we still kept in touch and also this isn't some kind of debate. And I take it as you, acted harshly after hearing unpleasant rumors about me that might've hurt you. Now, let me tell you, I'am just being defensive. No point faking friendship, I don't lack any. Hey, seems like you've changed with time & the life and the people you're surrounded with huh? :) Bolder I should say. And that's a huge disappointment. Well if you said you spared a thought for me, but you did not bother ringing me up to make things clear or whatever doubts you have. Oh, you might've and is still pretty confident with every single comments you've made. That's ok. But there's always three sides to a story. His side, her side and the truth. Before even clarifying, you ended up harboring resentment in your heart weakening this "friendship". Of course only the ones involved are clear of their own doings. I don't really care whose the one carrying an ill intention to try sowing discords or even cause disputes. (It might be interesting to them) hah. By tarnishing others' reputation won't make yours good anyway. 

In times of discouragement, remember who made you rest in comfort? By helping you in the problems you faced with another lady. Who rang up that abusive ex boyfriend of yours? Telling you to push all blames on me if he were to take things up or try to lay his fingers on you. Oh i'am not trying to claim any credits but at least to me, I remember every good deeds and the treatment I received from one-self. And at that point of time when you were trying to get rid of him in your life. it was even my first time getting to know you (over the line), and we haven't even met in real life, yet. So can we say we're mere strangers at that point of time. Or yes, we have mutual friends. 

Look, your inflated self-esteem shows  your fractured self-identity. Why not try being more rational before handling such problems? It's unnecessary and a dumb prob anyway that leads to conflict. When something affects you, you tend to turn vulnerable and that makes you let down your guard that reasoned all the mean unkind words bouncing off your shell with main aim to pierce my heart. 

I won't bother explaining myself after all I'm quite sure the person you get to know from about all the deeds I did/didn't in the past, is someone you trust more than the percentage of you believing what I will or am going to say. So I see no point at all to argue any further. By all means go ahead with what you want to do, saying my bf's bro came over.. FYI he is already aware when he's unavailable and at that point of time we haven't even tied any knots in r/s. As for the "trying to seduce" part, clarify with that guy before hurling accusations. He's like a big bro to me at that point of time showing all the care and concern. Yes of course I do admit I was at my lowest but at least I know what's right what's wrong. "If" I had feelings for him, I won't correct you now but I have to be defensive of myself of what I did and what you people "thought" I did. Just like when you didn't mind even knowing bc having 2 other gfs. Love accepts all flaws, but no, we were purely bro-sis kind of friends. 

And if you're kind enough don't implicate innocent parties just to make your post more interesting. Like who said I used my bf's phone to reply and why don't I have any rights to hold his phone at all? Replying to what? To whom? It's non of his fucking business don't drag him into the picture at all. Just so you know, I did not even get mad when both of you became friends in Facebook. Why? Because i know you won't. Even when you were appsing him pouring the probs between you & your bf. So what's with the buey zidong? You really lost your rationality. Your main concern, your bf. He seeked me to look for a vacant room fyi and for the part pretending to like me, that's because he frequently comes passing, I didn't want my family to prompt questions. Made my piece! If you still have any uncertainties or doubts, don't hesitate to ring me up.

Monday, April 21, 2014

你是怎样的货色, 我就给你什么脸色


Ok I have  major problem now and that is whether to celebrate my birthday or not.. So lost now I totally have no idea how and where, should or not. Anyway, it is just like any other days to me already so, it doesn't really matter I won't be happy like the past few years too.. Why not save the hassle and spend it quietly?
Brought some of the photos that I collaged when I was bored at home.

2nd.

3rd

4th

5th

Well I kind of like the weather today :) Or was it the cold night breeze? I hope it maintains tomorrow. Finally, the only person who can make me laugh hilariously by just calling my name, called the day before yesterday. Guess who? Clement Wong Wei Hao! That idiot sent me a picture of him & elmo when he woke up the next day, which was yesterday. LOLOLOL! He's really like a boy who never grow up. Thats why you see my sister is so kewt to the extend that I hope we'll still remain the same 10, 20, 30 years down the road. Even tho we don't see each other daily cause both of us grown, graduated & have led our own lives, we're constantly keeping in touch. Even if we don't, for months, the friendship is stil strong :> At times he seriously annoy the hell outta me, but he seriously can make my whole day, effortlessly really. Muack xoxo.

YES. MY IDIOT SIS CLEMENT

SELFIE

Sunday, April 20, 2014

It's never too late, never too late to start over, to seek for happiness

I have this major dumb cells in me.

Second chances have never been a problem with me..
I tend to give about 7 or 8 times before I realize I'm
a fucking idiot.

Yes.

Fuck second chances, people never change.
And I learnt something about people,
if they do it once, they would do it again.
So, stop trying so hard for people who aren't
even worth your time.
They don't deserve if you're not being appreciated.
And if anyone of y'all , you're fortunate enough
to get a second chance, don't waste it.

Girls deal and put up with bullshit,
but a real woman is going to say
FUCK YOU and keep on moving.
Everyone of us deserve to be happy,
don;t let anyone be the reason why you're
not or make you forget that.
Lastly, don't bother about the people who
constantly apologize yet are just going to continue doing the things they
said they were sorry for.
They never will feel a single bit of remorse
if their apologies are being accepted and
forgiven all the time.

#QOTD - Once I stop caring about you, goodluck getting that back

People don't change, they just reveal who they really are.

 Say something, my life's getting bored... So unlike the past, I have somehow lost interest in nightlife, all the drinkings and gatherings.. I forgotten when was the last time I even shopped for myself and I don't usually do online shopping as it's really a hassle to do the transactions, collection of parcels & the uncertainties about size, quality and all. I prefer doing it @ the shopping malls I used to frequent.. Speaking about this, momma initiated to bring me to bkk this May as it's also my birthday month. But I haven't drag my lazy bones to check on the air tickets & all. HOHOHO ^^ Can't make decisions yet, just in case I chicken out again. The phobia of those terrifying nightmares sleeping in bkk hotels. Oh my gawd, just one of this point makes the whole trip dreadful, but to be frank I really miss shopping la! -.-" Anyway, yes as usual I'm bringing you people some pictures taken over the hols.

Back on track, followed fat to work in the evening like the other days.. He packed breakfast for the whole fam in the morn after he knocked off. So it's Kfc's porridge.. Used to be my favourite. Hmmm I guess I don't have to elaborate here. Those who've been reading this site should know. Ok I think I raised my voice at fat when he woke me up for breakfast. Muahaha. And I didn't noticed I fell back asleep only to realize it was already 4pm+ when I took a clearer look on the time on my phone.. WHOOPS. Still, I heated it up as I usually won't like to make anyone's effort go all the way down to drain when they are being nice and thoughtful cos I know how much it sucks to be unappreciated!

 Supposed to make a trip down to Thomsons Medical to visit xiaohao baobei's newborn. It's a babygirl by the way. Can't wait, so excited but to my disappointment Yolanda have already been discharged and is back to her granny's place. So, proceeed with our own plans. Gave the club a missed and was supposed to meet Joey the Mr.Angel for supp @ Batok but... granny couldn't sleep last night, came into my room, sat down and we chitchatted until she managed to make me give supp a missed. I'am also fickle minded lah travel all the way to batok for food when I can just call for delivery. Muahaha. Nevertheless, I would like to thank Joey for staying up the whole night just to wait for me to decide if I want to come out or not. In the end, he surrendered and gave up to the sleeping demons in him. :P

So, asked fat to pack duck noodles back for granny and myself as I can see the message she conveys when she talk about food. She's hungry! HAHA. I hate people who can't keep their words, when they are given an inch yet asking for a yard. It's pretty annoying and I would probably do ANYTHING to let them know that when I give no fucks, it can be a whole long journey in hell for them.. TSK! No don't assume you know who I'am speaking about.

Thats right.
The main source of my happiness.

HA HA HA ! 
Joey sent this to me & some audio clips
proving he's just a step from entering his lalaland anytime.
Ok la, I understand he's tired after a long day at work. LOL!
But ya, he actually knows me so well even after we've lost contact for years
just recently keep in touch. It's nice when people
are aware of what kind of a person you are.
They sees what a mess in me yet still choose to accept me for who I am.
People like Clement, Joey, Liling, Yunhan and all. So many 
for me to state down if I were to name them one by one.
You know who you are and I'am really grateful 
I have plenty of NICE friends :D


SNAP TIME


Ok I was figuring all the different apps that finally
my iphone is able to download. 
Holy shit, thank god for IOS7.
But would like to know too if the jailbreak version is available..


Ok 2 different shot of myself
and I'm going to end my post here. Heeeee!
Stay tuned be back fast.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Something I learnt about people. If they do it once they will do it again..

 It've been a routine to me following fat to work every evening, and then he'll bring me to Jalan Kayu for my prata.. Realized I haven't been snapping a lot of pics of myself lately, so cam-whored while waiting for fat to collect some documents.. Also there's indeed a huge change as I grow, no matter which angle, every single ones seemed wrong. I thought it was me who overthinks, but yes! How could I not realized such big difference about myself right? I mean, I'm the person seeing me everyday every min every sec. I don't remember having any hard time grabbing the RIGHT angle before I finally snap and every #SELFIE looks so fine in the past, yet.. things gradually changed. I even find it hard to actually smile to the camera or I'll prolly try to avoid half of my own face, it used to be snap snap snap till it goes uncountable like 30 or more but it's a different thing now. You can say, I only snap less than 5 pictures and I'll choose the most acceptable ones from there. Sometimes I even have to discard every single picture because of self-dissatisfaction.. Or is it that the standards have increased, like I expect myself to be better than this / that ? No idea.. Kind of really envy those youthful days that've gone to waste. But no, I've learnt alot and also been through so much, met so many people, and yes at that point of time those "life" were what I "wanted" So yup, no regrets just lessons learnt..

^^
Alright, here you go.. to some #SELFIE of me in bare face.
Getting lazier each day sometimes I don't even bother
about wearing my lens... D U H .




Fat brought me to Upp Thomson to satisfy my strong craving for Salted Caramel ice-cream. Yet I decided to give it a missed after having the WORST bom prata ever. Eew! The thought of it makes me feel like puking, both of us didn't finish that pathetic piece of our prata. It looks appealing when served but SUCKS ont he second and third bite.
You won't wanna continue having the fourth. Gawd!

So my superwoman called complaining this lil cheeky devil
refused to take afternoon naps. 
Hehe, she's so adorable don't she?

A . N . D 
Yes, in the late night I received an apps from Xiaohao baobei bringing a piece of good news which is, Yolanda's smooth delivery of their baby girl.
Aww, so wanna fly to the hosp to hold this small lil miracle..
Congrats to both as they enters parenthood.
It's gonna be tough.
Goodluck!
Muahahaha.

Noble mom. (every mom is.)

HAPPY EASTER, It's holy friday! Supposed to meet up with my 2 dear girls Liling dabian and Yunhan baby but as usual I was too lazy to do so :< They know me so well to have already expected this, the day before while we were having group chats. Muahaha! Whoops :x Also, didn't went to the hosp. But shall do so tomorrow with fat :> Still, he keeps me updated. They're like having PARTY yes no ? Lol...




Pardon this arrogant and not so like-able picture. Wasn't in the right mood so I Was like taking a pic for the sake of taking, for the sake of blogging. HAHA. Alright, wassup? It was my first experience at Max Brenner @ Vivocity #01-116, If you're wondering what it is, scroll down. A chocolate bar with so many varieties to choose from. Recommended for chocolate & pastries lovers. Affordable but would advised to visit the one at Esplanade for MORE choices ^^ 






Chocolate fondue with market fruits, fluffy chocolate sponge cake
 and marshmellows served with your own grill & 3 different types of dips!
We had creamy pure chocolate sauce, caramel dip and lastly
dark chocolate melts. (from left to right)

I'am never a Dark chocolate person when it comes to "chocolates"
It's either milk chocolate or NO chocolates.
NO white chocolates as well.
BUT, this time round I chose to dip dark chocolate melts.
It brings a better taste of combination or if I'd chosen milk choco,
it would definitely be too sweet.

THIS!!
Chocolate Chunks Pizza.
Max's double chocolate melting chunks and a choice of crunchy hazelnut bits,
bananas, peanut butter or roasted marshmellows.
Half - $10.50 (two pieces)
Full - $19.50 (4 pieces which makes a whole pizza)
* For your info, you are only opened to 1 choice if you're looking at this. They only serve roasted marshmellows the one located at Vivocity. So if you'd like to try crunchy hazelnut bits, bananas, or peanut butter, you'll have to visit the one @ Esplanade. 

Did not even managed to finish my piece of pizza.
It is really HUGE. and it's good la.
Just that I started indulging too much when the fondue
was served.. TOO EGGCITED.
And it leads to that "disgusting" feel after consuming too much 
of SUGAR* Muahaha. 

Visit http://maxbrenner.com 
for menu before deciding your trip!
I hope I did shared something good :D 

Had my supp McWings that youngersis packed. Fat is asleep already as he's working tomorrow. No, it's later on I should say. The time shows 4:15am now. 
OH MY GAWD, time for me to sleep toooooo. 

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

It's not easy for me to constantly keep up with everything that's changing around me..


Hey babies, how are my loyals doing? Well I'am only here to share with you
a few pictures only. Some of the quotes that I came across
in my timeline & then decided to type it out 
& edit some parts myself. But before that, I would like to share 
a very sweet image that I finally received from velle sissy.
Was waiting to hear from her and it feels like a decade already.
Lol ok exaggerate. I feel so appreciated but i can relate
SO MUCH.

Yes glad she knows I'm still there for her.


An edited banner version of fat n me ^^




 What I don't understand is, why society's standards are so high.
(or should i say, the living standards in singapore)
Why are they so hard to meet.
And why we have to conform into such characters.
No matter what society we're part of,
We never seem to be good enough.
But we still can make it.
(if it means, self console)
If we're not perfect
Or we're not the most well-rounded.
As long as we give our all to our passion
and never give up,
We will reach our dreams.
(i have a question now, but how long? time matters!)

The strange connection between momma and me.
I didn't even show a single leads of how sucky I'am feeling and yet,
she just sees through me. 

It was so coincidentally that I was craving for her sesame chicken vermicelli.
That was when I held my phone wanting to give her a call
Just at that moment, I received hers, first.
Asking if I want her to cook vermicelli, 
WHY OF ALL FOOD,
SHE ACTUALLY KNOWS WHAT I WAS CRAVING FOR?
Was it coincidence or what?
OH MY GAWD.
My mom feels like some superwoman with
super powers! Aww. 

And yes she came over last night, as usual stocked up my necessities
and this time round with kinder chocolates too!
And mine, just ran out. Too blessed.
Then cleaned up the house before
she cooked for me. Talked for a lil while.
And yes, I received that message from her.
As attached above.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

I don't know how to deal with how I'am feeling anymore

 Recently I've been so into Farm Heroes Saga that I neglect almost every social platforms of mine even twitter.. Also I just realized "Bom Prata" can be so delicious that I don't get sick of it even though I have it almost every single day. Muahaha, Prata lovers can try if interested. It's really nice, to me, really. Yesterday, you can say, was the happiest day with fat ever since the first day I got attached to him, hehehe!


Alright, so it was an impromptu chillax session with xiaohao baobei, yolanda, ben, weekian, weekhong, patrick and weilong @ 678. I'am only holding onto my phone trying to pass level 80 of FHS while the guys drink. But still failed. So fed up with my phone Idk why I keep encountering problems linking FHS to my Fb and that leads to shortage of lives cos its either friends don't receives my request for lives or I don't receive theirs. TSK! MADNESS. Muahaha, ok pardon me i am really too addicted to it.
Fat made me so pissed that day, he didn't tamed me when I 
shouted over the phone and hang up. 
But sent this image to me an hour later. ^^
So silly, I can't get mad at him for long...

And many thanks to Eldersis for getting this for fat.

Look where fat keeps the cough syrup out of my sight & reach!
GRRR. I had a really hard time searching for it. 
Usually need it to aid me to sleep whenever I experience insomnia
:<

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