Anqi's lil space.: I'm lying by myself. The silence seems to swell. Somday this all will change, its a temporary pain.

So grateful for all the supports from all of my friends.. I think some might even feel disappointed seeing the always-standing-strong anqi, falling so so hard so down this time. I don't know where to start & I don't wanna further elaborate or repeat the reasons why because it'll only reminds me of the things I don't wish to.. This year ain't a good one for me I should say. It's like 4-5 problems come colliding..

Seriously sometimes some people needs to know what's " I NEED A BREAK! " All I need is peace & space. Fucking stop asking me to get back on my feet, get back on track or whatever shits. Not like anyone of y'all know how it feels to be left in such a pathetic state. But no, I don't need any sympathy cos I' don't find myself a poor thing. & OF course its easy for anyone to just say, stand up move on. Talk is cheap.. And hey that's plain bullshit! Honestly, I don't need any to judge the way I handle this. It might seem stupid & childish. because you're not the one facing it! You can talk all you want it doesn't really affects me. Insensible or whatever fuck, come I can take it. I've been through the toughest shit. So what now? It seems like human only seems to "mature" when they've got the "chi-ching"? in other words, money. Oh, so when you're broke, you're childish. Okay, I learnt something.. Till you feel how I'am feeling now, then its my turn to fucking throw you a big bowl of bullshit. Make sure you swallow & come back fixed! And who doesn't want to lead life happy? Who wants to stay home doing practically nothing, and get everything free. Only if I know magic, I would've discarded all my feelings, remove my memory.. Who likes locking themselves in room lying on bed whole day just looking at the ceiling with emotional songs blasting? ME, IF i am still a kid.. Realistic! Realistic.. Who doesn't wanna work, splurging with their own money? I know how good it feels to own some savings! But too bad I wasted it. Don't bother talking sense to me cse all of those I'll just regard 'em as bullshit. Leave me alone & trust me, one day i will and I can make it!

Money? Easy.. Why not going by the shorter way? Better still, why not I'll be that kind of girl the materialistic, escorting the rich mans' kid? Life would be so easy.. Would I feel happy? Alright drama over/ Fake a smile, I'm fine. Nobody realizes the pain from the eyes. My heart is broken but it looks like I can't get any better.............. Sigh. Just nobody knows how bad it feels to feel so bad inside.

Smile like that!

MY DEAR ESTEE!

ANG GE GE~

Look at this dog!

Shes always there for me, without fail. Even tho' shes facing her

darkest & lowest time, she'd still lift me up even tho' she can't

stand up. GO BABY~ YOU CAN DO IT!

Forever so caring velle sissy. Lovelove.

And today, woke up early, met up with superwoman & made my way to Raffles plc. THE ORIGINAL BKT for lunch as we couldn't wait any longer for sushi tei. Tsk* Long queues everywhere......