hello good morning readers, alright its roughly 6:40am in the morning so it means shaun & my dog's gonna wake for work! :) Yay, happy for them right? Finally working, just in case you;re wondering which tyoe, they are in sales line selling copier machine, yup coincidence.. The world is small you see.. I am so proud of my dog, he managed to close 1 on his first day. Muahaha. GOT TREATS BO?

 Okay, you shouldn't and you can't ask me when/where I went/go/wore/bring okayyy. Imagine~ One whole month I haven't been blogging or jotting notes on my whereabouts.. well, but it indeed happened not much, the bad. Tsk not gonna think about it. I'am suffering from this sickness call "Leaving me alone" so please don't bother, talk, joke, or even try to smile at me because all you see is a WORSE THAN GRUMPY ANQI.. I can say I pulled a long face through-out the whole 90% month of September. Now you know how serious it is... Need not bother asking why, and am I alright already or so.. When you know, you'll know. Sigh, it indeed was a very tough month for me.. I locked myself in my own room @ granny's place, I hardly go home & the only place i'll go, maybe drinking? Yup..I'm always like that lah.. But people, I'm really feeling one kind deep here in my little hurting heart. It shattered onto every different places I don't know where should I picked anymore so it causes me into such state. Can totally no speak at all, I cry like its a routine to me, loudly like a baby, Oh my gawd I really can't imagine, managed to calm and simmer down only these few days when Nouvelle sissy MADE THE EFFORT to take care of me because I want NOBODY inside my room even momma,. Hmmm, Let me think, the highest record of me not eating is more than 10 days, I only drink and smoke totally appetiteless. Dad got worried, mum got worried, aunt as well, needless to say granny also and all the other close ones. But they each did their part, Eldersis for comforting, nagging as usual, but at that point of time useless of course, while youngersis stays besides me all the way till 5 am in the morning to make sure I go nowhere. I am such a hassle :( Every steps I took, it's like someone's attention on it too. Course when I go to the toilet, there's always either person asking and everywhere I go, in the house or nearby lah, momma makes sure someone is there to be with me..
BIG SIGH. I DONT THINK IM THAT SERIOUS LAH. I don't know why, but I really can;t control myself too. The first thing I open my eyes I feel like screaming and then next, I am already crying. Maybe it is the emptiness inside, Idk how to express but I know there's a certain kind of "I HAVE NOTHING" feeling in me.. So I end up crying and crying non stop.

Happy uh? My pupil or the cornea is blurred better still, blind. So I wouldn't have a slipped chance to face this cruel world. Sometimes I cry for a reason, but all the times I cry for no special reasons at all.. Its ok I'm numbed anyway. At first I thought it was normal to cry and shed tears after a long relationship ended.. But it worsened problems after another. I literally feel like shouting everyday.. Slowly one by one of my friends and families member advise me to the psychology which I think they over exaggerately judged me for I'am someone strong enough to handle everything on my own without seeking for advices or sharing of confidential problems and so they hardly or should I say, they seldom see me cry at all. Not even a single tear, prolly it gives them a shock.

 Alright, so it was an impromptu IKEA trip with my sweetheart JoannaYee. I remembered editing out pictures but I don't know why I can't seemed to find it at all now. Nah. doesn't matter. I'll dp a special one for her later :P Shit my eyes are weary already since 23456789 hours ago and I just refused to go to bed. Ya, this is another problem they face. I',m perfectly fine actually I just feel annoyed all the time. Yes ALL THE TIME. Super pekcek kind. Backtrack, wanted to get more but it was over my budget. still, able to make it. HEHEHE!

REVAMPIING THE ROOM IS ALWAYS ONE OF MY WISH!!!

After Ikea, met up with Liling and Yunhan while Joanna Left for some progs. And yes, how can I missed out these two lil angels on donating some strength to my nest? Started shifting the wardrobes the tables the small red one and my bed, lastly, the dressing table. I too, roughly cleaned the room & It feels really awesome right-after.................. AWW.

The cupboard was SUPER DUPER HEAVY SO I I THOUGHT I

GOT TO REMOVE ALL MY CLOTHINGS BEFORE MOVING IT.

GUESS WHAT>

Not even a single shift!

GAVE UP!!!!

Ok theres a lil pink polkadot carpet with my sandals before stepping in.

The very first thing you'll see is the cupboard and the dressing table. 

And then on your left.....

MY COZY CORNER!!!

and the unremovable table :( 

My dressing table with two very small pink dustbin and tissue holder.

A pink carpet under the feet on the floor.

My best buy :) 

Anyway if you're wondering why was it so messy.. 

SCROLL DOWN.

TEEHEEEEEEEEE

TADAH ~ 

KittyVelle accompanied TeddyQi to get all necessities.

The new drawer for my tidbits, the photo frames, the wallpaper, 

stationery and some cute lil stuffs. 

I HAVE TOO MANY DRESSES TO BE ALTERED.

Happiest day lor confirm. 

First to get iphone 5s among my circle of friends. 

Sometimes it's hard to reject such expensive gift sometimes even harder to accept.

But anyway, kittyvelle was mad furious idk how the fuck she

managed to heartlessly somehow ruined it when I haven't even got the chance to use it..

WELL IF I WERE HERE, I think the phone would've been already dead too.

:( 

Whatever.

Chubby right me.

I don't know why they managed to snap this natural ugly smile

of mine. Totally no idea what it is.

Definitely that retarded Sam.

Out with the cliques.

ALWAYS HAVING FUN

LOOK! SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

He's doing stupid actions foreverrrrrr.

BUT IT MAKES US LAUGH LIKE CRAZY.

Too kind, friend.

Didn't realized we took such a nice picture until I checked my gallery.

Me and my cutie. Muahaha

Look whose carrying my bag retard.

He requested lor to pinch the cheek. OK OK I KNOW.

FAT.

My dog and I

MUAHAHAAH

No misunderstandings ah.

Purely best friends.

Ved and I

\

I can't imagine I did this after drinking, in the morning.

Just 2 mins, mmmmmmerrrrrreeee 2 mins he's not willing to spare.

KittyVelle went to the Nine Emperor God event with me, youngersis & yunhan :)

Didn't managed to meet Jolene as her dad was with her.

And that explains why we seldom meet up already after her

semi recovery.. So sad. But nah no drifts :D

5 of us

Xiaomei you xin le.

It's always easy to just see at one glance who cares and who doesnt, who shows

the fake concerns and who wants to best for you. 

Thank you Velle, you indeed put in a lot a lot of effort,

uncountable, if weren't you, I won't be still here.... 

LOVE

This middle finger is for CHONG HAO JUN lor.

To town with momma as I got to check out the sisters dress for Alicia's big day.

It's never a hassle when it comes to my treasured friends' importance.

Even when me myself am half dead. I'd still sacrifice the other half.

LOOK! MY NEW SHOE. SOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE RIGHT!

Alicia asked me to check it out. 

Not so bad in real.

But everyone disagrees. 

so,

CHANGE OF MIND.

Not a wasted trip cse I got all my looooooots.

Supper @ Mr Beans Cafe with Eldersis and Louis before booze.

And I forgotten which day was it

I get to see lil Estee baobeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

AIYOOOOOOO~

OMG I SO LOVE HER CAN 

She brings laughters and smiles to me effortlessly.. 

Aww

MY CUTE LIL SWEETIE PIE, 

what are you looking at?

We've finally come to the end of the post.

OMG, I can't stop straining my eyes, frowning my brows and

shifting myself on bed. TOOOOOO TIRED BUT I SAID AT LEAST ONE!

A proper one!

KNOCK OUT FOR NOW AND BE READY FOR PRETTY BABES

OR INTERESTING STUFFS.

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