But I have no one to pout to..
I am always alone and will always do.
No, I stil have granny.
And shes also the only reason why I'm still kickin'
Yea, I miss smiling but its just not as simple as these words spells.
Smile? It's really hard for me now...
Baby chloe. Love her hair.. She's only 2 weeks from turning 1 month
when we snapped this pic? I think so..
The dishes I prepared for animal & sky.
Really felt gr8 being appreciated by someone,
you know when you least expect 'em to
be so nice, so thoughtful, to actually snap a pic & say nice words
when y'know guys are just GUYS now in this era.....
Hope you guys enjoyed the dinner. & Also thanks for the helping hand, for helping me with
painting after a whole long day...
I LOVE PRAWNS BUT I DON'T PEEL THEM.
(it used to be Jgws peeling 'em for me)
It's either him or cindy ahzeh, or cousin david or dad removing the shells
for me. But this time round, a gentlemen did.
THANK YOU SKY.
Young, but far more thoughtful than the seniors. LOL!
I'm
just
really
....
...
..
.
t i r e d o f b e i n g t i r e d
s i c k o f d e a l i n g w i t h t h e s t r e s s s
and e m o t i o n a l t h o u g h t s.
FOR MY DEAREST DAD.
Christmas came late this year.
IT was peaceful yet lonesome,
I can't deny, I really can't deny I hate loneliness, who dont?
By the way, it's from velle sissy, tyvm i appreciate it really.
even tho' we hardly have time together now.
Just yesterday, went dinner with xh and elaine nearby.. Tze char, filling and bloated.
Catched up a little, & then pack dinner for granny as usual.
The reason why I only meet up with a countable number of friends,
I don't have to repeat the whole damn story about all the pain inside of me.........
I just update the latest WELL-being of me.
It's the 2nd last day of the year and people just have to STILL continue hurting me.
Why can't I just let the fucking 2013 LEAVE ME peacefully?!
It fucking screwd me more than half the whole year.
And when the night falls, when I have no one to rely on.
When my eyes are filled, Granny's the one sleeping beside me......
She's got my back
So I, too, will do, always & forever...
It sucks to sob silently lying in the dark
too afraid anyone would notice
yet feels sad
when you realize that n o b o d y i s t h e r e.
Yet it contradicts how at some point of time, you just need everyone to
leave you alone.. Sigh, thats why I say, its just hard to describe.
Yea, we've all grown up unlike the past, and the only thing I have to change
about myself is to STOP RELYING ON ANYONE.
I just have to get my feets on the ground MYSELF.
But its just so hard when 21 yrs of my life,
I've been just, relying..............
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