If I throw you the key, would you fight for me

Hello readers, I just finished editing 100 over pictures, I think I got 4 times more of what I have to edit maybe tomorrow or any other days I feel like blogging. So angry my lappy crashed. Look, below shows how fuming mad I was, that day... I hope they can retrieve all of my datas if I bring it to SLQ to refix. Anyway I got no fucking idea whats wrong with that old and problematic lappy. It was good with me, until recently it started giving me problems like shutting down or hanging there with the mouse, unable to move. My laptop is my everything lah! Without it, how am I gonna survive without music, & surfing the net?! :( Sigh

HAHAHA

Okay, I got to remind you people that pictures are not in sequences alright? Tomorrow

I might be uploading last week's picture, today I might be uploading yesterday's. So don't assume the 

dates and days taken. 

Look at the picture above, 

She's a big bully,

you all thought she really very good meh? 

MUAHAHAHHAHA.

Okay lah, she claimed I'm always the naughty one 

don't wanna listen to what she says.

But sometimes I find her abit blur right? 

I can't possibly follow blindly hor hor hor

Afterall, I still love her.

& We do the craziest thing together when we're alone. 

Smirks*

I love writing! Saw these cute stationary while doing a quick retail therapy,

so I got the heart shape diary for sissy while mine's in polka.

Basically we'll jot down the parts of what's revolving around our life.

YAH YOU KNOW?! Sometimes cocks and tails ~ 

DUH

Sissy have been very very busy with her timetable 

nevertheless, she'll still come over to acc me even just for 

few hours & so etc;

Me with my favourite. HEHE*

He's just like my childhood boyfriend when we're young.

Even until now :P

Line chat with Jacky and Gab the other day.

:Least at the later part of the day they managed to make me laugh like crazy

when initially my mood was ............................................

MUAH BLOOOOOOOOOOOD

My hair's getting untidy.. So long already

Heihei, she really very sayang me altho' my attitude sucks like hell.

I can always feel her trying her best to swallow down all

the anger, talk sense to me, sometimes it makes no sense tho' but it makes me laugh.

Muahaha. Tryna say she's really careless and blur lah!

Sissy and I got the same top and pumps I chose! :P Momma came up,

top up tidbits, my drinks, as well as my cigg and ru yi oil

I don't know why this image turned out to be so flat.

It wasn't supposed to be.

But christmas was peaceful this year, as usual gatherings with the cousins

but I was hiding in the room with cousin in law catching up 

while I paint..

Thank you my dearest aunty, sally. I think whenever I flare, I would shout and scream at everyone

but not her. Hahaha you'll know the reason why when you get to know her.

Shes so wide, clumsy, cute and most of all, she dote ME best.

She'll always respect my decision, when I Say yes means yes, no also means no.

No naggings just clumsiness. HAHA

Even during my darkest days, she knows I allow NOBODY into my room except sissy,

she'd still buy necklaces, chocolates, clothes & etc for me, 

leaving it in the living room & then text me telling me those stuffs are for me..

Randomly edited this picture & sent it to Peipei.

because I miss these two troublemakers. 

:( I wonder if darius would stil look for me or have he already forgotten me?

:(

And here it is, finally received "something" from sissy today.

Given her character, yes shes sweet but she shows it by actions

seldom in words. Muahaha, FINALLY KAI QIAO LE.

here it is.

And recently, I started to wash granny's clothes and pants... I won't use the word "dirty, smelly or stinks" I wouldn't like anyone to use those words too. Everyone grows old, granny is getting old :( She's behaving more like a kid sometimes my heart ache alot seeing her like that but I'll still play along with her.. Someday we'll all grow old we'll experience what she's experiencing now. For example, the control of her bladder that sometimes lead to leakage. Also her sense of hearing is getting poorer, together with her response when people talk to her. So I HOPE EVERYONE PLEASEEEEEEE BE PATIENCE WITH HER OKAY?
XIE XIE .


Goodnight, I HATE BEING RUSHED TO SLEEEEEEEEEEP. I don't want to sleep!
I don't like wasting time sleeping away but waking
up alone............................................................

Whatever, nobody understands either.

Hi readers, sorry for the lack of updates as recently I've got tooooo many pictures even I myself can't remember when I took those pictures. But will do so soon alright? Here's a video for my dearest daddddddy! :D Spent 7 hours editing it till momma and kitz fell asleep. Muahaha, happy that I finally got it done 5am this morning!

走了好几年 又回到原点..

Currently blogging with my iPhone. I seriously can't figure out why the fuck all the bad just keep clashing towards me, nothing good. I need a fucking laptop so badly! I'm going crazy.

是回憶在說謊

Hello people sorry for the lack of updates as I have too many pictures to upload. Will do a proper one

tomorrow alright? Anyway, above's pic taken with that cheeky that day when aunt brought 

me back to visit dad as it's been almost 3 months since he last saw me. 

Lots of pictures to upload.

Stay tuned alright

Guess whose?

@ baby Andres' BIG ONE! :D

If you're one of my loyal reader, you would've noticed that this picture taken with momma is

an overdued pic. It's always FAMILY over EVERYTHING. After tons and tons of worries & problems, 

you realized who are the ones showing genuine care, 24/7 worrying for your well-being. Yes, its momma.

I really don't need any labels to make me a happy girl again, all I need is time I guess.

But if you were to compare the Anqi now & the very depressed Anqi 1- month ago, of cos it;s a huge

difference. Momma have been paying her fullest attention even tho' I seldom update her,

she'd ask granny about me.. Haven't said I love you for 20 years, so here it is, 

I don't like to be very mushy you know, 

MUMMY I LOVE YOU. 

Thanks for everything you give me.

Another issue that have been bothering me for quite some time. Granny's health condition deteriorating as days passes. At times when I speak to her, she takes more than 2 mins to response.

Normal reaction, of cos I thought she did it deliberately wanting to disturb or play with me.

But no. Today, when I spoke to her a little bit louder, and yes as usual she took quite

some time to reply, I was mad furious I cried..

She then finally told me the truth, that she's old already, 

sometimes it's hard for her to response immediately. 

I really really WANT TO know her current health condition but she just refused to...

SIGH WO HEN DAN XIN.

She's really stubborn & I'm having negative thoughts always when

she can't really hear me tooo :(

I don't wanna further elaborate already or I'm gonna cry the whole night...

Goodnight people, After a can of beer I'll turn in...

A sense of emptiness.

She's so dearly important to me

I don't know why but I recently lost patience while talking to her.

:(

Prolly cos my probs are weighing too much.

BUT I really didn't meant it I hope she understands/

I will be extra caring, thoughtful and slow towards her from now

like how I always did in the past.

Granny, please be strong and stay healthy.

I LOVE YOU.

I have no one to talk to already, so ya. 

Even tho you won't be able to read this......................

在我心里 外婆的命 永远都比我自己的烂命重要

Have anyone ever felt so angry with your loved ones because they're nowhere to be found

you actually feel like crying while you shout at them with tears in your eyes not knowing 

when and how would she be coming home limping or hitching.

The worst scenario I can imagine her sitting down on the bench or the bus stop blaming on her

impeded limbs... Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god! THANK GOD SHES BACK MAN.

Just got home heaving a sigh of relief. I swear at that instant when the rain poured 

so heavily out of a sudden, I was so panic and terrified, literally dumbfounded just like those few 

times when I insisted she shouldn't go to the market alone when the skies are dark, but

the stubborn her still went along and so, again just like the other times I've got to bring

an umbrella down, & walked to the bus stop to wait for her... AHHHHHH!

Why my granny so naughty one? :( Thank god I did morning prayers this morning.

Omg nobody knows how I feel whenever this situation arises. 

Moreover she forgot to bring in the laundries..........................

But thank god, granny's safe and sound now at home with me. 

Nothing's ever more important than her safety. She's never a burden to me but 

such hassle can be easily voided right? Sigh! Anyway, I have so many pictures to upload again 

after I bathe. So stay tuned! 

Another thing, Nuffnang should really do things efficiently man! Ever since 2009 I've been advertising

yet they take more than just 3 months to post a cheque.......

Heavenly Father,

I first would like to thank you for all things positive in my life today,

just as well as thank you for giving me life and the love of those who love me.

Thank you for loving me through the times I have been lost. You know my struggles,

my sorrows, my hopes and my dreams, My heart.

21 years on this earth and yet you are the only one, and i'm okay with that.

Nothing else matters. I haven't spoken with you for far to long being caught up in this earthly life,

and time is has been speeding by. I need more time with you,

you are the what I desire and I can't live without you.

Inside, my whole life i have been a wreck but it is you that brings my strength

 and my power to maintain in my darkest of hours, Only you.

I strive everyday to be better than I was yesterday because of you.

You have my heart and my soul, and nothing else matters.

I love you.

Please continue to help my family,

as well as the rest of the world.

Please keep my friends and family healthy and watch over them.

Please help granny to see your light in her times of need.

If people know it or not, I know that you are the only way.

Thank You.

In Jesus's name I pray,

Amen.

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Hi readers, you people must've been wondering why I've not blogged for so long right? Alright, I'm down with fever since monday night. Thankfully I've got kit here to take care of me, feed me with medicine & etc; Also, I haven't been going to work and I guess my boss is quite upset with me. Sigh, I don't know what to say about myself anymore. Bad things have been knocking on my door, nothing good..


Kit have got exams and assignments going on, so she's not staying over tonight. Granny's sleeping beside keeping me accompanied. I just hope I don't pass my slight fever to her as she's really old already, immune system too, definitely weaker than mine..


Hmmm, after I recover. It's time to hunt for a new job. Its really sad to say I'm leaving VIS after I collect my cheque.. I really love the working environment there and it's really my first time loving my job even tho I got to wake up especially early just to prepare & the rest of the time spent on the journey to work.. Well they probably already replaced another person for my position... Myself to blame, what to do? My conduct for attendance at the first month sucks already why and what makes me think that they should still keep me in their company right? I'm so irresponsible & the biggest mistake was stepping out a little too late.. Screw me my life's forever messed up!


Well, this Saturday it's Weilun's birthday already! No idea what should I buy from grace again.. Haven't got my pay yet, so there's a limit to what I buy.. Sian!


Here, I would like to thank kitty for staying over taking care of me, reminding me what I should/shouldn't do. Waking me up at night for medication while she continued mugging for her exam notes.. So grateful even tho I don't really show.. Will upload pictures once I'm done editing.

Haha I'm forever praising people I wonder how it feels like, being praised and thanked.

Guess I never will have any chance at all. Cos y'know I don't mind playing the roll of a devil if you' wanna act like an angel..

Love & you'll be Loved. God loves me

When I'm busy...

Dinner after work, with Louis and momma @ Delifrance.

Macadamia, Japanese crackers and gummy choco from Momma

Kinder bueno white (i don't eat this) and hersheys creamy & crunchy from Shir.

Seems like she don't really know me well huh.

Just when my wishlist stated " a mouse and a mouse pad "

Momma got me Little Twin Star mousepad :D

Telepathy? 

She didn't saw my wishlist at all.

Another striked off! Yay

Look how messy it is.

PASTAMANIA HAM AND SAUSAGE BAKED RICE

DELIVERED TO OFFICE.

Yumz.

Boss got me to decorate the whole office with christmas decorations.

I guess I'll be spending christmas alone this year, boxing day as well and even

Chinese New Year. Don't feel like socializing at all.

They'll all go " hey wheres jeff. why this why that "

This is for SLYVIAMKY

That fine morning

My heart feels so much heavier than a million kg stone.

In love with this picture know?

LIKE SUPER CHIO LOR.

But real life....

Also pretty la, but not as CHIO as this pic okayyyy.

Evidence to show "my mother" nouvelle that I HAVE EATEN MY MEAL!

AWWWWW!

GRANNY'S FINALLY SMILING WHEN TAKING

PICTURE WITH ME!!!!!

I'll CHERISH THIS PIC SO MUCH SO MUCH 

I FEEL LIKE PRINTING IT OUT PASTING AT EVERY CORNER OF MY ROOM

She was once my pillar of strength,

now she've became some sort like my mum!

LOL.

She buy tidbits for me everytime she sees me, 

and its like we see each other almost everyday!

One full bag of my favourite tidbits and non-stop topping up my necessities.

We normally get 1 packet extra necessities right? 

BUT THIS WOMAN HERE BUYS 3 TO 4 EXTRA PACKETS EVERYTIME!

Imagine how all the stuffs she bought, occupies my room. 

BUT I STILL LOVE HER LA!

From shaun bb :D

Look, My gemini bb Shaun can be as sweet at times even 

tho' he seldom expresses himself like me..

Look. My room's in such a mess whenever I'm alone.....

Sigh. 

BOOOOOO

I can lose anything & everything in this world. I can even lose my life

but I can never ever bear to lose my dearest precious granny.

I realized she've been having hearing problem recently, feel like getting

a hearing aid for her but she's kinda against it. 

Suggestions anyone??

:'(

Sighhh.

Heavy lunch eh? 

But i managed to finish it all alone! It's really yummy.. 

I'll only get a packet for myself when I have to help boss bank in cheques,

reason: SUPER FAR!

Met up with Xiaohei for awhile on friday @ my office, headed to Gleneagles as he wanted to get 

his client's discharge report. Back to office shortly, but he didn't have enough

time to wait as boss was out. So didn't managed to fix a time for appointment with Iris too. Sigh.

Hopefully it's a deal. But chances are low I guess?

Finally gained a little weight after so much of hardworks. Muahaha. 

Look at my chubby cheeks