是什么让我遇见这样的你

alright so i spent my whole friday with dearest eewin from day till dawn. sigh diet plan failed and she's still being such a bitch by packing my fav kfc bbq cheesy meltz all the way to baobei's home. v sweet though but did it deliberately despite knowing that I am trying damn hard resisting. (but failed) blame no one but myself :( 

finally kicked aside the laziness in me and hands on. pink and glitz for this month. so unlike me! 

and tiffany blue with silver glitz for that biao kia eewin liu. 

baobei have already reached home after we're done with our stuffs. teckwhye for bak kut teh cos initial plan was to send her back. but the v kind and loving girl decided to accompany me wait while baobei did his reporting. hehehe!! after dinner was to jurong, went down to Jurong point specially for awfully chocolate but to my disappointment, my brownie was to no avail. grrrrr so upset! 

eewin wanted to get mini egg tarts and i couldn't resist the cuteness of all the mini tarts and so i got 4 curry puffs 1 tuna & 1 chicken puffs back for baobei. too cute! look below, they are so far as compared to my palm size la! 

companion of the day. went to visit chanelene for a short while and also to collect the wedd contract from ved. thanks so much finally met up w her as our time always clashes. 

cinnamon sugar pretzel have always been my first choice when it comes to auntie anne's. also got one for baobei to try :) 

mini curry samosa & fries with velle sissy. it was an overdue pic, 2 days ago did black & gold glitz gelish for her and spent half of the day tgt :) 

sambal chilli grill fish. so bloated from all the food intake :/ baobei and i sent sissy back at around evening before resuming his plans meeting his colleagues. he kept his promise by bringing me to fav cousin's place as i promised i would dye his hair for him. hope my fav likes it 

-- i can't and never will learn to bootlick or suck up to any single person. sorry but maybe I was born to be this blunt at times. and i don't look for benefits in friends too it's either we get along really well or we don't. that's it. i am not born to please anybody neither do your opinions matter to me. get this right

Throughout life people would make you mad, disrespects you and do you bad. Let god deal with the things they do cause hate it your heart will consume you too

gotta admit it takes me longer time to fall asleep whenever baobei's out of sight. and it always seems the hardest in the morning where he've already left for work so i'd always hope i don't wake in the morning :/ hates dealing with tummyache early in the morning especially when the skies are still v dark. tsk yea that was why i'am awake so early still, cos i can't get back to sleep already. so let me continue from where i stopped in the previous post. 

after visiting papa'y was to meet up with mr.angel for sushiiiiiii. actually he's really nice to specially travel down just to accompany me have my fav sushi cos i was craving badly for it la.. and the fact was that he sat down and watch me eat, catch up a lil & he went back. tell me where can i still find such an angel? muahaha. forever laughing w this idiot, no matter where we are, we can actually create so much sound pollution by laughing our ass off without giving a damn if anybody's lookin at us. lollll

wo de baobei :) this was an overdue i just found from my folder realizing i haven't uploaded yet so just share it here.

our virgin experience at noelle's signature. the layout menu seems similar to aston's but the food served was surprisingly better! the best part about a main served with two side dishes is that it was charged at an economy price so whatcha waiting for peepoz?

baobei had steak served with cheese fries & coslaw while i had spiced herbs fish with mashed potato and macaroni cheese topped with tortilla chips. awesome combination but the serving was too big and as usual baobei have to be my rubbish bin :p

after dinner with his fam, we went to a nearby petrol station to get Haagen Dazs as we were randomly talking about ice creams. hehe thanks to his sis for being so sweet as always, she got me my fav coffee flavored. yea i've changed my type, i no longer sticks to strawberry anymore. 

that's for my mum and dad, not forgetting all my beloved friends and baobei. love you guys 

thank god I found you

hi firstly i would like to thank a few of my readers for the feedbacks and comments if you are one of them you know who and what it is all about. i may not be very good in words or expressing my gratitude but everytime i receive such emails, they makes me feel so appreciated. 

alright so it was a simple date with my fatty nothing special as i've mentioned earlier on that we are gonna scrimp and save for better plans.. my day ended quite awful because of the sudden nausea i was feelin halfway through dinner that made us rush back home. and it is always 如意油 that aids me to a much more comfortable sleep. endless gossips with mr.angel and he's forever that sweet. it seems effortless to him to bring laughters to me everytime anytime despite my good or bad mood. 

难得我的宝贝笑一个我当然得赶快拍张照啦 :P he's especially sweet yesterday. muahaha even tho he pisses me most of the time 

Look who i visited today? papa'y have never forgotten me despite the distance and seldom catch up. he always initiates to look me up by spamming my phone even tho at times i am still sleeping and also forgot to return calls when i wake. he would continuously spam me for the rest of the days till i return his call. hahaha so kewt right? but i didn't did it on purpose becos most of the times i am sleeping and doing chores no matter I'm at baobei's place or granny's. so today i took out some time to pay him a visit, packed him the usual food he would always eat. he's always elated to see me and express how much he dote on me but forever complaining that I spend too little time with him. prolly becos both my grandfather have passed away, and because both his sons are away, i'd always regard him as one. 

y'know i find it so ridiculous when i came across people doing door-to-door sales selling insurance! INSURANCE YOU MEAN? what?! i am pretty sure the technologies now are advanced enough, why do sales person end themselves up in such a sorry state? 

happiness is as simple as having your arms wrapped around me, watching you sleep soundly beside me under your embrace. muack

Tzx

Here's to the most persistent boyfriend, who tried to bring me back to life when i was still trapped in my own world, depressed and insecure. He's so different from the other bf-s that I used to have, normally they would just accept me & my flaws for who I am and the wrongs that I was doing unlike the current one. He showed me the right path where I should focus on, tried to change me by making me a better person, blending himself into my lifeless world when I was only busy numbing myself not being able to face the outside world after a failed r/s that I've wasted for 7 years close to 8. I didn't knew his reasons and intentions when blending into my life was to let me know how it feels to see someone you really care for, wasting their life locking themselves in the room just sitting and waiting for everyday to pass doing practically nothing until one day when I was pretty much sure that he, have slowly began to be someone important in my life, I hated seeing him leading the life I led, and how when all the disgusting and useless people ruined my whole world because of what I was doing, I stopped and tried stepping out. I got to admit it wasn't as easy as just stepping out and being back to my normal self at first but he patiently guided me through till now, a healthily happier and matured me. 

Even though he sucks in expressing his own feelings he's got the best thoughts for me no matter what he do. It was hard for me to get along with him & his weird character at first but as time passes, I guess I've found the way to deal with and understand his silence. There's always a reason for his doings, no matter i agree or not because it's always for my best interest. And even tho he've made mistakes in the past, I believe our r/s weren't that stable and mature at that point of time when both our minds/world were corrupted with narrow minded & paranoid peoples. I trust my instincts that he truly felt sorry and would make a better boyf before deciding to give him a chance to repent. Those who knows, know.. 

I probably didn't thank him enough for bringing me back to life when he was the only person who's so persistent about us, against the entire world. (Not forgetting afew of my supportive friends who trust that I would never do those despicable stuffs that others maligned me of) that's why there's a saying it is unnecessary to explain to those who don't trust you, and that goes without saying the people who trust you, don't need any explainations from you but I am really grateful god brought him to me. I was once very negative about him, and was overly judgemental about all the things he've done. To be frank, he was once the first person in my list that I used to condemn. Nevertheless, his patience towards changing me for the better, showing me that my life could be so much livelier and meaningful than just dealing with nasty people with vile and vicious character ruining my entire world changed my impression towards him. He showed me who I can rely on, who I should and shouldn't trust even tho I was too stubborn to follow back then but the truth came to light as time passes. He gave me all of the reasons why I should distance myself from people who would only do nothing but harm to me, gave me all reasons to stand up for myself even if it means standing alone, showed me that he will be there for me even if the whole world is gonna go against me and that they don't matter at all as long as we're ignorant to their dramas. And for all and more of what he've done for me, I want to hold his hands and do the best for him with no regrets at all, even tho at times he really gets on my nerves for being overly passionate towards every single friends of his. I'm willing and always will stand by him no matter rain or shine. Because I owe it to him for the happiness I feel right now. 

The tips to be able to overcome all obstacles was as easy as being truthful showing each other how and what outsiders have been doing trying all ways to break us up but still standing as strong as one. Thank you baobei. Happy 7th monthsary.

sometimes i wish i were a kid again. when skinned knees are easier to fix than a broken heart

back, fellow readers and stalkers *wide smile* both of us decided not to frequent clubs or spend on unnecessary stuffs anymore, saving for rainy days and maybe soon our big day? maybe maybe. his momma have been prompting us about applying for bto.. its not that i am unwilling to, i hope she understands but i got to do what i should to protect myself & at least not risk my future cos i am still not very sure if things would change anytime. i mean ya things are good now but afterall we've only been tgt for like 7 months. even the previous 7 years of r/s didn't assure me enough to apply a flat leave alone a 7 monthy. on the other hand it's also becos of my own insecurities, i don't wanna choose and waste my time on any guy who don't have any plans on settling down, we're aging.. We can't chase back all of the time we've lost you see. but i hope of cos, he's the right one.. 

really appreciate sweet lil gestures like that. at least, my friends would think of me even when they're overseas :)

few days ago, accompanied fat and john to one parliament to do their OT. and we passby this Capitol building finding the banner very interesting. 

whenever baobei sees that i'am too bored accompanying him & his fam, he'll initiate to get me ice creams. yes i am just THAT easily satisfied :P

hahahaha most of the people can relate ya? I can't, cos I'm not married yet. but sounds pretty funny so i shared w dad..

I think he THOUGHT i'm like having phobias in marriage becos of my failed r/s previously. It was just a random pic la actually.. and he tried consoling me by saying not every marriage are as bad. of cos i know~ But out of 10, 9 men cheats outside even thought they know their way home. with or without kids, I'm sure when a guy decides to marry any woman they've chosen, they're sure they want to spend their life with her and that the women they chose makes a good wife material ya? *winks*

back on track, yea i know i've been the biggest worry & headache for mum & dad and i know they loves me a lot. they supports me financially even when I'm already 22 and should be working and planning for myself. and i can't deny, partly becos i know my mum & dad will be there for me to rely on, that's why i didn't really start hunting for any jobs. another reason is becos my bf doesn't wants me to work as well.... Hmmm. But if any job opportunity knocks onto my door and suits perfectly for me, i wouldn't hesitate to get back on my feet again. afterall i've been slacking for way too long. close to 2 years already! 

They say I've put on weight and I look better. Of course better than being a skinny skeletal monkey :) Looking back at those skinny pictures of me makes me wonder what the hell was on my mind at that point of time man! Lol but some people like it that way I guess? Prolly cos they're not born naturally petite, I'm glad I am. Even tho I am considered petite no matter how much weight I gain, but sometimes I do feel like a short humpty dumpty ok! 

LOL HA HA HA! I was trying to make my lip thick enough so that i can look like her* but failed. sorry mouth too small :P

OVERTIME OVERTIME~ 

Thanks baobei I finally tried this! Nomnom ^^

At some point of time in our life, we have to walk away from the people who don't appreciates our care & concern that actually meant well at least we ourselves know we've done our part and our starting point were out of good intentions. gotta save yourself or nobody would.

because i came back to life, for you

okay I've been partying too much lately. planet with grace & co but my sandals just have to be so cruel to me by snapping even after having a bad day. thought i could slightly enjoy myself already after getting them replaced from 7-11 but the next kind thing my eyes did to me was, getting infected.

 

thanks to the bloodshot condition i was forced to leave the club an hour after i reached. back to boyf's place to wait for him to be back before i can tuck myself in. i think we've only slept separately twice in this 7 months of r/s, yea so we're kinda used to having each other beside or back-to-back before turning in.. who knowsssss i fell asleep upon waiting waking up to mad bad cramps at 3am. argh! torturous time of the month again

my tidbits box, filled by my fatty and his sis.

Happy birthday my dear babyeeee. I wish all good things befall on you. Love love love. No need for mushy words anymore cos I've already did right? Muahz

Received a very random text from 鱼儿 jingting asking if I'm over at bf's place. we met up downstairs for a stick becos she got me some hersheys all the way back from china! heeeheeeez, why so sweeeet. everyone remembers me lovin hersheys. and the cutest part was that they comes in different packaging like the ones in s'pore. appreciates all the lil sweet gestures like that

Next, night time I received a call from Eldersis saying she's gotten garrett popcorns for me. Aww it's been a long time since I had it anyway. so much yayness. Gotta stop sugar intake for the time being :P because look! The bf brought me to greenwich V to get my craving satisfied. Salted butterscotch again from awfully choco. He he