deal with situations the way it is, not the way you wish it was.

are anyone of you watching the show on channel 8 at 9pm every weekdays? i'am not a tv kinda person, so i don't really watch tv unless i'am bored at home or when i accompany granny to do some chit chatting. oh my, it was my first time watching the repeat episode next morning and awww shawn's acting skills was impressive! not only me but granny, uncle, fat and hasnie feels the same way too. never a fan of him, but he's really good now la! had tears in my eyes and really, i felt the goosebumps when he was crying hugging the dead dessert woman. AWWW! 

my friend's favourite corner aka territory @ her home. we were chatting when she woke up and i got it right! other than her room, shes always at the left side of the sofa. it've been like that even when i stayed over in the past. :')

baby kimie is growing way too fast, i love babies a lot really. but it takes forever for xiaohao to bring his sweetheart out :( 

I CAN RELATE AND I AM SURE MOST OF YOU CAN!

my silly boyf got this packet of sweet back. not knowing i dislike the popping effect in the mouth. haha, he always treat me like a baby.

10 years.

black and gold never goes wrong.

cheap steal! :P

someone kept this picture of me for the longest time. it was also taken during the period when we just started knowing each other. the first thing upon looking at this pic was "not bad 8 years ago i already own a dior necklace" LOL but idk where the hell it is already, remember momma gave it to me and i said it was ugly because of the way it is, short. and then....all i could remember was, the girl in the picture was the happiest girl in the world, back when life was simple, easy, loving, and good. no judgemental people, no heartbreakers, no troubles (except having to attend sch =x) thanks for loving me when im ugly hahahahahahahahaha!

if someone tells me that the sky is green, i simply say "okay" I don't need to agree with them, and i don't need to prove them wrong or show them "proof" that i am right if/when i believe otherwise. i simply go on with my life, with a newfound understanding, that to some people the sky looks green. and i'm okay with that, it keeps external conflicts from disturbing my inner peace... and isn't that where world peace begins? with each of us being peaceful?

 unless you're not.

倘若心中愿意，道路千千条； 倘若心中不愿意，理由万万个。

feels kind of weird right now can't remember when was the last time i blog on a lappy. like i've said i have the best friends in the world! since my lappy is still with shaun and that i am too lazy to collect back from him, grace initiated to let me have hers, till i'm done :P technologies now are so advanced, her samsung ativ smart pc pro is so much better than my old and lousy laptop (even tho it serves me well, till now) other than it is windows 8, i like how the whole notebook is invented. conveniently detachable, and one thing i like most is the touch-screen function. it is always so hard to catch up..

almost missed dad's birthday dinner as i stayed up the whole night the day before and slept at only 4pm late noon. supposed to be meeting at 745pm but it was already 7pm when youngersis came to wake me up. but still heave a sigh of relief, i managed to make it! 

always the most blessed! i get to eat all of the crab claws while the rest of 'em settled the other parts muahahaha! and of course, fat peeled my favourite prawn without fail haha, sometimes i feel so bad seeing him dirty his hands when he don't eat prawns.. hardly gather as a family unless theres special occassion. and when i say special occassion, i'm only referring to the ones that are related and got to do with "dad" haha, he will never entertain the rest. yea, he's just that weird.. regardless, we still love him :D

our pillar of strength, the one who worked his life for the 4 women of his, our pillar of strength. and if there's an afterlife, i would still want to be his daughter.. well, i guess one of the reason why i'am still lazing around staying in my comfort zone at this age of 22, is because my dad (other members of my fam as well) supports me financially still. and no i'am not embarrassed about it, instead i feel blessed. haha but don't worry, i'am gonna drag my ass out to work as soon as i find a suitable one. (forever saying but no actions) im just that lazy..

someone took a picture of this leaf and send it to me claiming it resembles a heart shape. lol

sushi feast yet again with my partner grace, feels like forever waiting for her to be back from taiwan trip. forever travelling la this girl. so when shes away, i know i would have to bear with the mad craving for jap food.. it IS a torture to me okay!

once again, we're at the last week of december. just a couple of days and we're all stepping into a new year 2015. funny how time flies so quickly, especially 2014. but twenty fourteen had been a real pussy so glad its all coming to an end. i hope 2015 would be peaceful i don't ask much, just a quiet and peaceful one. 

silly one,

been really long since i last got my hands on mahjong. haha spent my xmas eve over at cousin kim's place. luck's still doing good :P biggest winner haha! fat fell sick unfortunately, so we had to leave early. supposedly to attend john's birthday @ jbar but the thought of it already bores me! so we fixed another day with john for dinner treat. prepared some gifts for a few of my friends, and im sure they love their presents judging from how much i understand them. ended the night peaceful and contented even though there were many places i could join different group of friends for drinks. he's so happy cos it;s is VERY rare for me to be at home while all is out.

to find your prince, you're suppose to kiss a frog, not fuck the wholepond.

got an instant candyrushhh right at my doorstep knowing i have recovered from the sick bug. and i definitely CANNOT missed out mentioning this name because i would be nagged for my remaining years if i don't credit. lol! THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH JOEY I LOVE YOU OK? J* muarks! k lah it's really very nice to have someone who's so sweet to you all the time despite hectic schedules.

at last, final fuckingly i am treating my friends fair. convinced myself that it is really unhealthy to always spare 24/7 of my time/space for the boyfriend not knowing that my friends need me too muahahaha.

chill out with liling at secret lounge on saturday. nightlife is officially not my thing anymore, lol. yawning my way to dreamland at only 1am! -.-" it's not like i sleep early everyday, i can stay up the whole night turning & tossing on bed unable to fall asleep yet i feel tired when i'm outside. the only thing on my mind was my bed! can't find the enthusiasm in me already unlike the past. remember how i used to look forward to & dress up for weekends, heels, falsies & those super short dresses I used to wear. gawd give me a break man. find myself no longer putting so much effort in grooming myself in the recent years. joke is i don't even know when friends randomly talks about the names of clubs/thai discos. totally have zero idea what they are talking about, idk where and which are the latest & most-frequently-visited hangouts, i simply know nuts now when i'm out at night. hahaha! wtf didn't thought this would fall upon me. that's a good or bad thing? 

alright back to where i was, saying that i feel tired most of the times when i go to clubs, guess liling couldn't stand me nagging about how tired i was after only a tower. i think i looked very-uninterested and unaware of what's happening around my surroundings. i only know i'am drinking beer, spending the night in club just because it's saturday & the worst part, eardrums being blasted by the roaring of r&bs, trance & the latest hits. (roll eyes) as much as i would love to, i still got to admit i am officially OUT. blahblah no big deal ok.

BITCH PLEASE! 

mad craving for jap cuisine when i woke up one fine day realizing the sky was dark already, jolene had to do this to me. happily snapping a pic of her aixin salmons packed by eric, and sending it to ME! -.-"

HA HA HA without fail this sis of mine would still ALWAYS send funny/weird/annoying pics to me even tho we rarely see each other after we graduate. drunk dog

and oh i got a shock when i opened the image valerie sent to me in whatsapp tues morn. i thought she got beaten up by somebody with this swollen eye! anyway it's an infection.. yes that bad~ but hope they are recovering soon after days of rest. 

the angel often small see me. tsk

just hang up with the very angst boyf because 10 over officers went up to his place few hours ago giving his mum a fright. and he asked me to call in to lodge a complaint or something. lolololol. prolly because they did not really look into the attendance report or have yet updated. that's why i say singapore cnbs do thing sho not efficient can? but moral of the story is still, do not take any mc if you're still under their surveillance not even one even when you have too much of work to do or when you're lazy, you are adviced to drag your feets down to the station to report because seriously you got no idea how much leisure time they have to do house visitings :) understand la they're all doing their job but mehhhh my boyf not supplier need 10 officers so many? :/ even if he missed his reports, 4 enough rah..... 

people who shines from within don't need spotlights

i was too sick for the whole of last week to get out of bed and so this site was left rotting as well. slept for as long as i felt sick. it was a rough week for me, and i'am sure, worst for fat. am already very hard to please leave alone the days when i'am sick. the fever come & go consecutively for close to 8 days! imagine -.-" so sick of having to eat porridge every single day, strengthless to even had a proper shower.. but anyway thank you fat you took great care of me and now that i have fully recovered, your job is to satisfy all my cravings & let me have my own time :p

the truth is that the more intimately you know someone, the more clearly you'll see their flaws. that's just the way it is. this is why marriages fail, why children are abandoned, why friendships don't last. you might think you love someone until you see the way they act when they're out of money or under pressure or hungry, for goodness' sake. love is something different. love is choosing to serve someone and be with someone in spite of their filthy heart. love is patient and kind, love is deliberate. love is hard, love is pain and sacrifice, it's seeing the darkness in another person and defying the impulse to jump ship.

it was just another night at yewtee. but with different company :)

overdues. 

forgive and forget!

if you're staying,  you need to forgive and stop bringing up the offense. 

if you're leaving, you need to forgive and forget they exist. be clear in your forgiveness.

Hush little baby don't you cry everything's gonna be alright 

people leave you out in the cold and get mad when you finally learn how to get warm by yourself

your value doesn't decrease based on someone's inability to see your worth and no matter how good you are you'll never be good enough for someone who isn't ready. 

having to repeat what i've said over and over again is one of the easiest way to piss me off. but i understand sometimes people tend to act stupid, just so you know once i start losing interest good luck in getting that back from me. 

i feel really glad that i finally give zero attention to whatever a certain person's tryna say to me everytime we meet i finally comprehend the precise meaning of believing what you see and not what you hear after a certain person proved, when their words and actions contradicts. i would really appreciate if this person disappear from my life instead of constantly haunting me. 

it is said that even the nicest person on earth have a limit to the tolerance they choose to give. and from now onwards i have decided not to put up with any bullshits from anyone who least deserve it. so let me make this clear to you, i am gonna stop giving you the privelege to take control of anything i feel is not right anymore. i am not gonna just sit there and swallow the shits that should've long be exposed some time ago. and definitely never to spare a thought for anyone anymore except me. i have everything with me you know it, quit trying to twist any stories ok, for the last time seriously. 

have you seen a human version of headache? my boyfriend is one :') 不知道该哭还是笑. 

was chatting with cindy few days back. realized time flies like a bullet train so fast that all we can do is to speed up even when we can't catch up.. we can't always choose to live in our comfort zone sometimes we really have to take the first step out. don't say you "can't" it is about what you "want" the both of us started digging out pictures taken in the past, how much things haven't changed over the years and the people who walked in and out of our lives.. so engrossed in catching up we ended up chatting for more than 2 hours :') more to come.. 

was trying to sleep yet at the same time hungry craving for my fav kfc porridge the other day and so the very loving liling suggested i should try to sleep while she checks for kfc delivery hours. but the very next thing she realized was kfc doesn't offer deliver services for breakfast :( 

muahaha. there was loud whines and crying from downstairs one find morning, look at my cutesy granny. she actually climbed up onto the sofa to look down. haha omg so much love for her my beloved 

i believe certain people cross your life as guardian angels and some connections can't be explained off words alone. It's a soul thing, a feel...

because i used to take some people for granted, my insensitivity made me lose quite a number of "nice people" and even unintentionally hurt them so much that it actually turned into hatreds. and as i gradually realizes this very careless mistake, i'am truly thankful for the ones who endured and stayed around till today. knowing i'am not easy to deal with most of the times :/ so every now and then i HAVE TO share it with the world :) i WANT TO let them know how much i appreciate the kind gesture. too blessed to still have a handful. like, they have a choice not to, but they still chose to. SO THANK YOU AND LUV YOU PEEPOZ. trying to be grateful here la :) 

throwtotheveryback picture taken with my fat. 

a strong friendship doesn't need daily conversation, doesn't always need togetherness, as long as the relationship lives in the heart, true friends will never part. 

am that kind of friend that you actually won't hear from for 3 months if you don't take the initiative  :/  just that bad...... 

been dealing with this bitch for the last 4 days, why do we woman have to bleed every month for 7 days :( MAD CRAMPS! just had my breakfast while the bf went to work. so sad to hear that mcdonalds no longer serves my fav mcgriddles anymore. SO SIAN CAN?! 

What's real between me & you ain't none of they business

so far so good december, continue to stay in this way please. happy with my loots, they all fits perfectly. have been splurging too much these days like receiving new parcels every 2 days or 3. i think it's time to cut down a little even tho fat makes no noise about it.

TGIF.

A replacement of the old cross, interlocked hearts. 

Just when i needed these :D i think i can never stop having tidbits even when i reach the age of 40/50. hahaha 

Lol why my friend like that? He claimed there's 80 percent of resemblence Hahahahahahahahaha! 

Oh my sweet little chubby baby why you so cute?!?!

Aww. Loving my perfect make up that night hehehe been some time. X proud to be born, fair :P

It's such a bad look when a female is salty all the time.....